Sunday, January 26, 2014

Feeling the Heart

   This morning I felt compelled to type out exactly what was on my heart right out onto my FB page.  It was stirred in the night as I had dreams of injustice being made right.  When I woke up I felt the cries of some adoptive mom's return to me.  So many times they reach out and their hurt one bats back or they think they've come so far only to find out new hurts peek from around the corner.

   What I wrote truly can be for anyone, going through ANY difficult circumstance but I wrote this in particular for my mommy friends who are fostering, have adopted, or are working with children who have been traumatized. 

   I want to preface this just a bit with a note to my struggling friends:

 I see YOU from the top.  I see your capabilities and the possibilities even as you list for me all that is set against you.  I see myself IN you.  And even more, Jesus does too.  He already knows what he set into you for this journey.  You are so very precious.  You have been chosen to CHOOSE back that you would be the vessel in partnership for your child. 

  If it's been a long while that you have struggled and you think you can't possibly do it right today, will you find yourself a mirror.  Look into it and will you recognize the miracle of you that God created?  (You had nothing to do with that.) What you want to do for your child, you must see in yourself.



Here's what was laid on my heart.....

Choice requires faith and courage. Every time you choose what is both right and difficult, whether you realize it or not, you have stepped into greater strength even as you feel yourself weaker. Doing this repeatedly develops the change we have hoped and prayed for. Not that the circumstances in front of us changed but that we were lifted up and over them. Our view of them is no longer looking up at a giant, but from a higher standpoint we can see the intricacies of that situation and this is called wisdom. Looking up to God for our answers and in our yes being risen over our circumstances to understanding.


The fear of the Lord leads to life; then one rests content, untouched by trouble. Proverbs 19:23


Walking toward the fear, not running from it.....its how we fly into victory with Jesus. He is the lift to the mountain top and the beauty that we can look up to along the way.

Maybe loving a child into healing feels like the impossible today...so as you run to it, know that your heavenly Father not only waits on the mountain top, he not only lifts you up when all hell seems to break loose, but he is with you now as you take the first step and what he whispers is, "I did it all for you and I will bring you with me into perfect peace if you will keep focused on my voice, my deep love for you." 


Come away, my beloved, and be like a gazelle or like a young stag on the spice-laden mountains. Song of Songs 8:14

 You are able...more than able to live your life as a hero in faith. You are able to leave a legacy of wisdom and truth starting with one choice- to respond to His invitation.

Will you believe? Your child might not be seeing you as the hero right now and maybe you dont feel like one. Maybe you dont even feel like you have a choice in the matter but you do now. You choose how you will perceive. You CHOOSE to stay when its hard. Choose faith again today even if you have to do it intentionally every minute so you dont lash back in their pain.

Some who first sang out in joy to the world that God will never leaves us as orphans are singing it now, with tears streaming down, on their knees, outside the bedroom door of their broken hearted child who now to needs to know this truth.

Rise up mama and papa, you can do this love walk and you will experience the most alive in Jesus as you choose to see them with His heavenly lens.  Those tearful cries are a beautiful fragrance to your Father in heaven.

Breathe. Hear His voice. Look up. Let the tears fall through your smile and song.


 Love is worth it all.

 In the last days the mountain of the Lord’s temple will be established as the highest of the mountains; it will be exalted above the hills, and all nations will stream to it.  Isaiah 2:2

Lord, give them ears to hear your songs of invitation and eyes to see your working behind the scenes.  Let grace rest on their hearts today and mercy on their lips.  Your word does not return void.  You are our GOOD daddy!  Amen!

2 comments:

christieminich said...

Tina,
This post is God's perfect timing for a sweet friend of mine. God uses us every day. Today, for sure, he has used you!

Julie S said...

As a random reader I am in tears today...somehow I was led here today even though you wrote this weeks ago...today I'm having a hard time seeing the forest through the trees. Trying to blaze a trail for our youngest whose needs are so great, so mysterious that at times it is all encompassing...anywho, thanks for pouring this out to build others up. It makes a difference.